deciphering the days

My alarm goes off and I'm not sure how, but I get up. I get dressed. I eat something and get on the public transportation. I go to class. As soon as I can, I come back home and go to sleep before work. My grades are dropping. I don't like that. I haven't gone grocery shopping. I don't care. My roommate is suicidal. I go to meetings about suicide prevention. I talk to a counselor. Not about myself, about my suicidal roommate. I should have talked about myself. I'm not happy. I smile for everyone. I can't fall asleep. I sleep all the time. I can't get out of bed. I am never late to class or work. I add up all the time I spend in class, plus the recommended time for working on school outside of class, plus the hours at work. There are not that many hours in the week. I barely eat. It's almost night and I'm in bed. I need to study. I can't sleep but I'm tired. It happens. Again. It has every night this week. I'm laying on my back, fal...

"Have you spoken to Joshua* and Marie* recently? Do you keep up with them?" inquires a good friend of mine? Being very fond of Joshua and Marie, I reply, "Unfortunately, I haven't spoken to them in a while but Husband was going to have breakfast with Joshua last week! I don't know if they did. Why? What's new and awesome with the Smiths*?" "Oh. I am guessing you haven't heard...they are getting a divorce." It was one of those moments where literally everything stopped. My friend kept talking but I wasn't listening. Divorce? That is literally impossible. No, I don't mean 'figuratively.' I mean 'literally.' These two are my role models for life, relationships, fellowship, joy, spirituality - the list goes on! These two are solid Christians with real relationships with God. They have been instrumental in mine and my Husband's relationship. These people are inspiring - to everyone they meet! They are down to ea...