here we go again

the voices in my head


Starting my day with eggs, peanut butter toast, and coffee was a good choice. Including a ten minute social media scroll was not, partially because it was a sixty minute scroll. A scroll full of violence against people in the name of morals and religion, raiding elementary schools for "illegal children," idiotic laws about conception determining gender and starting at erection, and notable comparisons of bodily movements to historical villains...

I'm tired. Should have stayed in bed. I shouldn't have scrolled...maybe? But I do need to know, right? What choices my country's leaders are making...I should know that, even if it's hard to watch. 

The anxiety, that I did not wake up with, haunted me until well after lunch. The anger. 

I have never been involved with politics outside of my own personal vote. But when is it time?

I'm angry. I don't know how to help. I need to take care of myself and learn how to take care of others.

FITNESS

  • I have been working out and eating better. Time to bump it up a notch. Get a gym membership?
CONSUMERISM
  • Budget! I have a google spreadsheet I really like. Time to lock in. There is an organization I like to tithe to - time to pick it back up. 
  • Stop spending money on big U.S. corporations and businesses. Supporting small businesses and generally stop spending. How long can I go without buying any new "stuff?"
  • Reduce, Reuse, Recycle. (took me down a rabbit hole of Deny, Defend, Depose)
  • Marie Kondo - simply my whole life. Don't let me house and my stuff weigh me down
SELF-HELP & MENTAL HEALTH
  • Read non-fiction, self-help books too
  • Give myself room to be angry and to learn
  • Keep up counseling - 2 times a month at least
  • Trash Journal, to help with emotion management
  • Limit social media and news to an hour a day - but be deliberate with what I intake (valuable news sources, some down time, etc.)
GOALS & DREAM
  • Get hobbies again. Don't make up new ones, just make dreams
  • Being a relaxed woman was a dream last week. Not sure it is this week though
  • Publish the kids book I have a manuscript for, for the last five years
  • Keep reading fun fantasy. Add Animal Farm, 1984, etc. 
  • Book the tattoo appointments - live this life boldly


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