my rocks
My counselor separated my emotions, thoughts, and responses into rocks. The big rock is Core Me. When I was young, events caused damaged to Core Me, so I created defenses to keep me safe. The defenses were good, but they started to work overtime, responding when not necessary. Core Me does not need those defenses, as adult me can handle the emotions and minimize the damage, but my defenses don't know that. I also have adult responses, that react when events get past my defenses, which are almost always negative coping mechanisms, as I still haven't practiced managing events as an adult. Last week, I was tired, stressed, and was invited to a social event with my husband. He wanted me to join. I wanted to join. But I couldn't. I was planning to do the social event. I didn't know the other people. I hadn't prepared. I wasn't ready. I couldn't do it. But I probably could have, if I just didn't care about all the other things. But I couldn't. So I didn...